Delving deeper into myself. I am fully aware of my actions, and how they are affecting who I am and my surroundings. It comes with my intuitiveness and my ability to see reality for what it is. Things have been going well for the most part aside from a bump here or there. Keeping up with all the material, got a Histology TA position, got a car, and live in a pretty nice house.
Despite all of this, I feel like I am constantly just going through the motions. Days go by where I am no concept of time…I keep becoming oblivious to the extrinsic factors of my life that normally I would pay painstakingly close attention to. I feel a lot better from what I did at home, but I feel like my mind is so whimsical here. Those of you that know me well, know that this is not me. Yes, my mind is always going and always thinking of something, but there has always been some order to it. I feel like a child down here with my thoughts. It has its pluses in that I am thinking less and analyzing less which has always been an aim of mine, but at the same time I feel so…under-developed. I feel like I have changed myself, but cannot find a happy medium just yet to my old self and my new self. Something that I shall continue to look into and try and discern as the weeks go on.
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