Fleeting Compendium

I know I have been away for a while. I have learned a lot about myself during this time as well as the stage of life that I currently am in. I have also come to a closer understanding of how I view life: A continuous compendium of fleeting smiles and laughs. For what more is there to life? Yes I know a lot more, but for some reason we cling on to certain people and experiences in our life for a semblance of permanence. Rather than simply moving forward with our lives, we guise our path with a shroud of our present hopes and wishes in hopes that they instead will become our path.

This compendium eventually deluminates the clarity and cognitive capacity with which we take our decisions. Relationships are important, but when I will never believe that a relationship should define, characterize, or be the strength that guides you forth. Relationships should help you grow, they should give you tools to help you forward in your path, they should offer you love, compassion, and help, but they should never be a bastion of stability in my opinion. The only lasting relationship is that with one’s self or with one’s God. What other need is there? Using anything as support is just a form of cowardice whether or not the intent is pure or not.

For the first time in my life, I am proud of where I am with how I am handling things. Things are nowhere near perfect, or how I would “like”. It seems like my frame of mind has shifted from trying to form a steady foundation of people around me to focusing on my inner drive, inner strengths. Enough people have come and gone from my life whether I let go or they go, and I truly believe from all of this that while relationships offer clarity, they are an object of brevity in a preponderance nature.